Through this work angst a common theme keeps occurring. What keeps coming up is that I am too open. I don't like playing dirty. I just like to state the truth as I see it and deal with what ever happens. I cant manipulate and I find it really really difficult and exhausting not telling it like it is. Politics is way beyond me. I beat myself up about this all the time.
I remember once in Katherine I saw a recruitment folder on my bosses desk for a job that I was going for. He wasn't around at the time. I remember thinking if I opened this now and looked and didn't like what I saw I might be able to change the outcome. I made the choice then not to look. Not to manipulate. Let what will be, be.
I didn't get the job and they put someone else in it. Three weeks later the girl was sacked for her involvement in fraud on one of the communities. This is where missscott assumed the position.
Another lady said to me that I have a childlike honesty that is totally disarming. I thought that was a joke and laughed. She got cranky and I realised that she really meant it.
The reason for this writing is that today, in two separate books, the following quote was on the first page that I opened on each book. Neither one was the Bible.
Truly, I say to you, unless you turn and become like children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. Matthew 18.
Now I feel better about how I am.
I remember once in Katherine I saw a recruitment folder on my bosses desk for a job that I was going for. He wasn't around at the time. I remember thinking if I opened this now and looked and didn't like what I saw I might be able to change the outcome. I made the choice then not to look. Not to manipulate. Let what will be, be.
I didn't get the job and they put someone else in it. Three weeks later the girl was sacked for her involvement in fraud on one of the communities. This is where missscott assumed the position.
Another lady said to me that I have a childlike honesty that is totally disarming. I thought that was a joke and laughed. She got cranky and I realised that she really meant it.
The reason for this writing is that today, in two separate books, the following quote was on the first page that I opened on each book. Neither one was the Bible.
Truly, I say to you, unless you turn and become like children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. Matthew 18.
Now I feel better about how I am.
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