Extravaganza of Kim

Yesterday I put a deposit on the party room. When I told Simmone she said dad wanted to know why I was doing it. She said "look at it this way dad, shes never had anything major happen to her like getting engaged, getting married, having babies and that is why she wants to have this party" after hearing this I felt really sorry for the person they were talking about then it dawned on me it was me and I started laughing because its just so funny. Apparently dads response was "well, when you put it that way, I understand".

And now that we are in the negatives with the weather there is frost everywhere and I took this gorgeous photo walking to work this morning. Dad and I were laughin about the crows flying past with a really shakey cry. And a pic of dad all cuddled up in bed on a frosty night reading a love story by Colleen McCullough, with a singlet, flanalette shirt and his corduroy jacket for extra warmth.

Series 2

I'm entering in to an exhibition in August because it caught my eye by advertising it as "Something Small, Something Beautiful." Item must be 43 x 60cm, which I consider large. So I'm having my frame made up similar to last time, but with fewer paintings. I'm really enjoying working with red black and white, now I have sorted out the technicalities of all that. I keep thinking about K-Rudd.....

Voices

What an emotional day, Jules took the helm. Sistas are doin it. I bawled on and off all day about it. Then just to top it off, I picked up the CD from the guy who was duplicating the audio tape from Christmas Day 1974 and listened to it with dad. Hearing Mums voice and Nannas and Pas and Gladdy Forscutt and Doug Hudspeth all talking about preparations for the Cyclone. This was at lunchtime and people had just started tricking into town with news of the grave situation. I'm on a roller coaster of emotions. Dad leaves tomorrow and I'm going to miss him so much. I'm almost afraid to go to sleep tonight wondering what kind of dreams will surface.

My Dad

What I heard today from my dad.

"Makim takit" When trying to put a tyre into a tube on my bike in the lounge room.

"Boodjoo Whisperer" While talking to my cousin.

"Face like a twisted sandshoe" When he saw a ladys face at the lights.

Our Shared Humanity

Age and Beauty

Spent the day showing off my navigational skills with Jodie. It was a lovely time together and I love the way she talks and brings her kids up. Of course I shared with her my great knowledge of child rearing and interpersonal skills. When I picked her up I asked her what she had in mind retail or cultural therapy? She said she just didn't care, she wanted me to make all the decisions because shes been so busy for so long all she wants to do sit back and enjoy it.I can relate to that coz when you live by yourself you have to make all the decisions, drive all the time, put the bin out and my pet hate, change the toilet roll. Deep hey?

13 Thinking Distortions

1. All or nothing thinking. Seeing things in black and white; anything short of perfection is seen as failure.
2. Over-generalization. Seeing a single negative event as a never-ending pattern of defeat.
3. Mental filter. Dwelling on a single negative detail that colors all reality.
4. Disqualifying the positive. Rejecting positive experiences to sustain negative beliefs.
5. Jumping to conclusions. Making negative conclusions not supported by facts.
6. Mind reading. Arbitrarily concluding others are reacting negatively to you without verification.
7. Fortune telling. Anticipating, and experiencing as an established fact, things turning out badly.
8. Magnification. Exaggerating the importance of things.
9. Minimization. Inappropriately reducing the value of things or qualities of others.
10. Emotional reasoning. Assuming negative emotions reflect the way things really are.
11. Labeling. Attaching labels to yourself and others and describing events in emotionally-loaded phrases.
12. Should statements. Motivating yourself with "shoulds" and "should nots" which results in guilt and anger.
13. Personalization. Seeing yourself as the cause for events which you had no control over.

Found this list on the net today and yes, I reckon I've done the lot in the last 10 hours.

Responsible Adult

My friend Angelika asked me to look after her house and plant. She said it doesn't matter if all the others die but please be careful with this dear little one. Well as soon as she left it started blooming. As she is away until September, Ive still got a way to go. I'm confident.