Unconsious Mind Answers

This weeks been very draining and I have lost my acting arrangements due to where the focus of the teams future work. They want a project manager not an admin person for the job. I'm hurt because my goal is to get the the APS6 level before retirement and this may be just a set back but all the same my self esteems is taking a dive. I walked home from work bawling tonight (pathetic) then had a shower and threw myself into bed and meditated for an hour. Right at the start I asked my unconscious mind to give me a symbol of what I need right now.... nothing then, about a minute later I jerked (like when you are dozing off) violently and a mass of silver stars exploded one behind the other. Then I asked "what else do I need?" Then a brown face appeared with brown hair hanging over the left eye, it wasn't me. I don't know who it is but who ever it is I bloody well need them. I'm thinking silver stars my love for Godde. I'm still working on the person and the analysis of these visuals. Amazingly I have been able to control my eating and exercise right through the week and feel pretty good about that.