Love and Fear

This afternoon I had a "manager once removed" meeting and left feeling something had been removed. I was feeling so bad about myself when I got home I rang my sister and told her I want her to tell me how deadly I am. She launched the spiel where I'm a genius who holds the department up with all the immense efforts over the years of hard work with hardly any pay. I had to pull her up twice and say no your going too far now, but she wouldn't stop until I got shitty then we both laughed. Thats when some of the fear left. Then this couple in the funniest wedding photos ive ever seen, invited themselves for tea and I really wasn't in the mood especially after the once removed and having minimal food in the house. Im no good at hospitality, but they must have known I really needed them coz they come to tell me they are having a baby. I bawled and laughed, poured over their photos and chose these four which are so hilarious. On the way out Jerry was saying his father was asking where they trying.... I piped up and said more like an Olympic sport... no hands, and we all rolled around laughing. That's rid the fear and I'm full of love again.