1961

Reflecting on my mum and dad today. The people who gave me life out of their love. Love... we die with out it, we die for it. We are pilgrims looking for it. We are obsessive, compulsive and full of stamina in our search. But before all that action, was is and shall always be the restful trust in Goddes love. We just have to be called to know it personally.

Today I saw Angelique in the shopping centre before she was to start work at My size, which I have been visiting lately, mainly to see what clothes Angelique wears. She dresses so beautifully with lots of linen and natural fabrics. We have had a lot of in depth conversations about consumerism and life in general on her job. Shes been in Australia from Germany for 2 years. She has a very easy and calm energy about her. I also suspect she has a great sense of humour. She gave me a great start to my birthday. I called her over to have a coffee with me, which she politely refused saying she had to go to work. I told her it was my birthday today. That didn't swing her to stay, so off she went and I was tucking into my mud cake and coffee when after about 10 minutes she reappeared and asked to join me. I was so glad to see her. I told her it made my day and we sat and chatted about how Germans are very work focused and how she promised herself that she should take it easy now shes recovered from a serious illness. Shes very clever and and has a strong sense of fairness. I'm smiling now just remembering her words. I said to her you must have felt sorry for me when you come back to have a drink with me. And this response is what nailed it for me "No, I was thinking mainly of myself and then both of us" She asked for my phone number as she wants to have her own friends outside the family and really start to enjoy her life, not just working all the time. I am going to try to help her do that.

Then Esther arrived with prezzie of 3 strawberry plants complete with pot. In her car she had her journal for this year she wanted to show me, which included things about me that she appreciated and the time we have spent together over the past year doing stuff. I didn't know I had influenced her happiness and I was so touched I bawled like a baby.

List of gifts
4 meters of Raw Silk - Lauren
Recorder - Dad and Crofts
Strawberries and Pot and Lunch - Esther
Fresh organic stone fruit - Suzy
Fish candle and small journal book (above) plus my meal at La Scalas - Tess and Janice
Bunch of smelly pink flowers - Kim (me)

Phone calls/Texts/Visits
Crofts
Dad
Carmel
Suzy
Lindy
Sandy
Doris
Mary
Ness
Jack
Trace
Trish

I am so blessed to have so many people who love me and remember my day for me. Yes me, me, me, and me. Its the attention and care that mean the most to me. I luv you mob longtime.