Figures

Im thinking of starting my own card range. Three people have suggested that they would sell.

Unusual Things

Yesterday, when on my way to the Dyslexia Centre a pigeon flew above my car. When I parked and got out a man was standing there and asked me if that was my pigeon. I said no the only bird I have in my life is the Holy Spirit.

Today, on my way home to collect my car before going to the Dyslexia Centre a man who looked Tibetan walked towards me and softly asked me for $2. I said I wouldn't give him money but I would give him food. He said he would like food. So I said come with me while I go get some food from my fridge. I got him fruit, a fruit drink, yogurt, rice and tuna. He was very happy when I rocked out side with the goods.

Whats this about? Got to be something in this.

Slippery Dip

Great joy today. William held my hand the normal way and also monkey grip way.

We went on the slippery dip and I haven't been on one for at least 15 years and gee it was fun.

My bum wouldn't fit in the swing seat tho, maybe next year.

Spending time with Moo and her boys was very relaxing and uplifting to my spirit. Thanks Moo. XXX luv ya.

Moo's Visit

Dear Moo came with her family today. Patrick (15) and William (5) are both gorgeous boys. Patrick is so soulful and William can read better than I can. Please note the phone number on Williams arm. Apparently this is what parents do these days when they take their children out into public, in case they get lost. I think its a great idea.

Moo really looked after me in 1998 when my house got flooded and I had no where to live. Shes very generous and gorgeous as you can see those cute little dimples in her cheeks under her eyes. When my dad saw her for the first time he said " see that sheila over there" "She looks like your mother did when I first met her".

My heart melted when Patrick said after the photos were taken of us two "mum I haven't heard you laugh like this for a long time".

Vunerability and Love

I'm pondering the reason why I only start to really love people after I can see their vunerability.


"I have two ways of loving You:A selfish one
And another way that is worthy of You.
In my selfish love, I remember You and You alone.
In that other love, You lift the veil
And let me feast my eyes on Your Living Face."

Rabi’á al-Basra

Art For Healing Lunch

I took the day off because I knew I would be emotional after gathering with the other ladies from the program. That was smart because I stayed for 1 1/2 hours and it was probably 5 minutes too long. Healthy food tho - no water in sight. What is it with these Canberrans? They don't seem to know that water is the elixir of life. Anyway an Indigenous lady "Betty" kept going back to my piece and looking at it. Later when she found out that I did the painting we talked about how she felt about it. She said she had to keep pulling herself back from touching it. She kept saying that all through the conversation. The red ink is still not dried which is unusual, but maybe that's what the painting needs to be for now. It will be interesting to see when it actually dries and what sort of head space I am in at that time. The hardest part of that painting was dropping the red ink onto the canvas. It was like solid energy came from deep inside of me and disseminated in to the air around me. On the way home I saw the gorgeous Magnolia tree and whiped in for a quick portrait with the new Irlen lenses on. Ahhh its a beautiful world with the glasses on.

Remedial Specs

Im seeing red these days but turning a blind eye to a lot of stuff. I have to watch an hour a day TV in black and white with these glasses, so Ive pulled my series of F Troop out and do a bit of viewing before and after work. Its been fun and Im laughin on my way to work these days.

Monday I get my coloured lenses (purple/pink) that will cut glare out. Yeah, Ill look like a tripper, but at least it will stop me from tripping over so much.

Goodbye Beloved Aunt

Its almost a week now since Great Aunt Caroline went home to Godde. Ive done the usual thing and gotten angry immediately. Murf said "you must feel sad" and oddly enough I don't feel sad as such, just cold. Weird I know.

I'm flying out to her funeral in Booleroo Centre in S.A. tomorrow at 6am. Leaving the car at the airport over night and flying back at 6am Friday. Just to add a bit of excitement to the whole process I lost my cards (Drivers License, ATMS ect) yesterday. Need the License to hire the car don't I. Need the cards for proof of ID for the License don't I............................any way to cut a long story short the cards were waiting patiently for me at home on the bench while I cancelled them at work.

Ive spoken to the funeral director and he is going to let me see her, which is going to be wonderful just one last time to look on the face I love.

Ive prepared a little ceremony for her and as I read out the stuff below I will throw the little pink cards into her grave. oh and fling some holy water around as well. To do this im going to ask Theresa to hold my spiritual hand during this part.

Beloved Auntie Carrie

This is the last family event you and I will attend together. I call for many blessing upon you

Whos Heart is big enough to hold 6 generations safely

Come Holy Dove, Cover with love

Whos spirit lights my path

Come Holy Dove, Cover with love

Who respected the earth and nature

Come Holy Dove, Cover with love

Who behaved like a big sister with me

Come Holy Dove, Cover with love

Whos heart was tender and hopeful beating under your wedding gown

Come Holy Dove, Cover with love

Who practiced tough love gently and firmly

Come Holy Dove, Cover with love

Who gave me words for my feelings

Come Holy Dove, Cover with love

Who snuggled in bed with both my parents

Come Holy Dove, Cover with love

Who was so resourceful alone

Come Holy Dove, Cover with love

Who loved past feral

Come Holy Dove, Cover with love

Who supported us in caring for our mother

Come Holy Dove, Cover with love

Who Trusted me to guide you through the bush

Come Holy Dove, Cover with love

Your name is written in my heart and I will always remember you.

In the name of the Father Son and the Holy Spirit.

AMEN

Men I Can Look Up to

On my way home at lunchtime a Corporate Express Van swearved at me. As it went past, Mark stuck his head out and and gave me the forks fingers. It was so funny. No one has done that in Canberra to me since I first arrived over 4 years ago.

The picture here is of the men I actually look up to.

My Vision Statement

I had the most amazing dreams last night.

I dreamed that I saw a father carrying a 6 month old baby boy with piercing in the babies face, a sleeper in the nose and the mouth of the baby. studs in an eyebrow and ears. that was a bit disturbing

The other one was I woke up at 2:45am with mission statement for myself. “To love truly beyond the bounds of social and cultural rules, without fear”. On reflection this morning it might change to something smaller. But I am definitely on the way creating a banner to hang in my lounge room with my mission statement.

Title for this photo is WishnPuff.